hello 2014.

as pensive as i am feeling, i am finding it difficult to give 2013 a proper send off.  after all, it has been a fairly decent year.  i am not one to complain much and honestly feel really too blessed to put anything but positivity on the year that was.  however, i cannot seem to think of one really blessedly wonderful thing that was birthed in 2013.  and i guess the sorrow with that is that it seems to have been a banner year for many.  i've watched all around me, especially as of late, friends and others experience really incredible life altering wonders.  new homes, better jobs, glorious travels, engagements, marriages, babies on the way, and all those big life things.

and then there is me.  nothing big and life changing to report.  and i suppose there will be many years like that in my life.  good years and then not the best of years, happy life-changing years, and some blessed years with no big life altering events.  i am okay with that quiet sort of life.  i cherish simple days with the regular to do's in a blessed awareness of all that is good, lovely, and inspiring.  in fact what i will remember most gloriously of 2013 were those simple quiet days in which i was just aware and content enough to enjoy life for what it was...sunshine, delicious coffee, loved ones, a memorable book, a happy puppy, a learning moment, a dream...life-giving moments of wonder, hope and joy.

i look forward to more of those days in 2014.  more good, more quiet, more joy, more hope, more wonder, more attentiveness, more.  time passes all too quickly.  mostly, i don't want to miss the moments.  i want to be paying attention as much as i can.  i want to be open.  maybe 2014 has something big for me.