i just think...

if he could think about me, he would.

i cannot live without books-thomas jefferson

okay, so this list is just going to be the books i'd like to read this summer...yes i realize it is still extraordinarily long, and will probably be added to, and some will be taken away over the course of the next couple of months :) and it will probably transition into a fall, then winter, to spring, and then summer again reading list :)

Reading List:
To Kill a Mockingbird
Farenheit 451 (reread)
One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest
The Catcher in the Rye (reread)
1984
Lord of the Flies
Hamlet (reread)
Great Expectations
The Outsiders
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings
The Great Gatsby
The Host
Jane Eyre (reread)
Emma
Persuasion
The Illiad/The Odyssey
The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus (finish)
The Glass Castle (finish)
The Garden of Eden (finish)
Evening
East of Eden (finish)
The Shack (finish)
The Diary of Anne Frank (finish)
Joe Jones
New Moon (reread)
Just Listen
Someone Like You
Along for the Ride
Lock & Key
That Summer
Love's Long Fatal Chase
The Abstinence Teacher
If you could see me now
Story of a Girl
Sweetharts
Columbine
An Unlikely Disciple
All the Living
Confessions of a shopaholic
The Third Angel
Loving Frank
The Looking Glass Wars

untitled or an undefined expression of grief

here i go.
i am stepping off the magnificent cliffs of sorrow
and am plunging down into a freezing blue pool of anguish.

it is the contradictions of life that behold us now as we struggle to keep our heads above water.
beautifully messy.
accept don't expect.
limited possibilities.
the window of opporunity has slimmed to a teeny tiny little peep hole.
are we just floating along?

Swim! Swim hard, swim fast!

"Unfair!" she cries.
"yes, well, who said it would be fair?"

"No one cares!" she whines.
"yes, well, do you?"

"I used to." her reply falls on deaf ears.

I tried to care about you. Maybe to make myself feel better. But I didn't or I couldn't. I am not really sure which anymore. So I take what is safe in my arms, and I hold it close.

I am terrified, it will tear me up, and leave me here wounded and alone.

But I hold onto that which is not real.
What is real? I am numb to real's touch.
My body used to feel delicate under what was real.
I could feel my blood flow through my veins.
Where did that feeling go?

I am numb.



Who are you? Where did you come from?
Why aren't you here anymore?

to kill a mockingbird (the second time around)

so i am almost finished with to kill a mockingbird for the second time. this time around it was so much better. i was totally immersed in this truly moving book. i decided to watch the movie earlier this week and while of course, it is never as good as the book, i loved the inclusion of a particular key quote/concept that transformed beautifully from book to film.

(Atticus to Scout) "First of all, if you can learn a simple trick, Scout, you'll get along better with all kinds of folks. You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view-until you climb in his skin and walk around in it."

such a great topic for a classroom discussion! :)

style icon :)

i love zooey deschanel! everything about her is great. and someday when i can invest money in a new wardrobe, she has the style i would love to emulate! classic, retro, unique. all about funky dresses! i love it.