13 February 2011

all things loved.

my blogging habits have been very poor these days. in fact, i am not certain i've ever had excellent blogging habits.  i think this mainly lies in the fact that my blogging tends to fall all over the place without really having a specific purpose.  in considering this, i decided to make a list of those things that i love that might enhance this somewhat purposeless blog, seeing as how i have managed to hold onto it for three years now.  


when it comes to reading other people's blogs i tend to follow those who write about the spiritual life, home decor, fashion, crafts, and teaching or writing.  now i love all these things, but consider myself less than an expert in most of them.  in fact i don't really consider myself an exceptional expert of anything.  however, i have an insatiable interest in music and books.  i love movies and my dvd collection is ridiculous...and i love, love, love making rather silly art projects that are more akin to something a five year old would produce rather than a mature twenty something.  


because this blog is about dreams i always figured it would just be a chronicle of my life and the pursuit of my dreams.  but because that has turned out to be less than interesting, i thought why not write about things that are exciting and interesting. however, that still may mean that i will continue to be the only reader of this blog:) but still, today i begin with this post entitled: all things loved.


since the holiday of love is just around the corner, it only seems fitting to write about something that i love dearly.  now first let's get a few things straight. i am not in love, nor have i ever been.  and yes i used to feel like my life lacked something because i was not in love or have ever really been close. we could get into all my neuroses and really investigate why that is, but i prefer to for now just say that love is not in the air for this girl.  i won't fill this blog with lies and say that i do not want to eventually one day find love, but to be perfectly honest i am in no hurry. don't be deceived though, that sense of unhurriedness does not mean that i don't feel any pressure to find someone.  i just don't ever want to do it for the wrong reasons.  truly i'm the kind of girl that can contentedly be alone for a good part of the time.  in fact, i think there is something to it that a lot of other people miss out on because they are too afraid to be alone.  i often find myself liking the parts of life and stories before the girl or guy meets his/her guy or gal.  often times life seems swell as a single person, and only much more dramatic and shaky when that "perfect" someone enters the picture, and that isn't to say that love can't be a joyous adventure. i perhaps like the advice best that i draw from an extremely wise source better known as the diary of bridget jones.  i will not sulk about having no boyfriend, but develop inner poise and authority and sense of self as woman of substance, complete with no boyfriend. (it must be added that this is best way to obtain boyfriend.)
so as i am currently a twenty something singleton with no single man remotely in sight, my heart instead for the time being and perhaps forever, belongs to a group of twenty five men, give or take a few, better known as my favorite baseball team, the san diego padres. for now these men have my heart and utmost affection :) and to celebrate the holiday of love, i spent my saturday with thousands of others and two dear friends at Fanfest. after spending eight hours at one of the nicest ballparks in the country i find that i am once again totally in love with the team this year. i know i say it every year, but i have the deepest unwavering faith, and perhaps am also a glutton for disappointment, but i think these boys can pull it out this year, and find themselves...dare i speak it, or rather write the sacred words...at the World Series! while i wait for the season to take full swing, i will tide myself over with the memories.
 Pitchers!

 Loved his fedora!
 Infielders!
 The team that almost did it, the year I was born! I was destined to be a fan. 
Beyond love for all things baseball, and the San Diego Padres...I loved making cute valentine's for my lovely dear friends this year!
If I can make anything with owls you better believe i will do it! :)

03 February 2011

music joy.

mouthful of diamonds...

reflecting.



In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. 
Albert Camus

It is hard to believe my journey as student teacher is over. it is even more difficult to believe that we are already a month into 2011.  I am amazed and proud that I made it through so far.  my last day as student teacher was bittersweet. I had such fear and dreadful expectations when it all began.  Little did I know I would come out of it all actually wanting to be a teacher :) my students wrote me letters and drew me pictures, and offered hugs and tears.  I was beyond touched. who knew all this time i was actually making a difference in their lives?!  


but now here i am, at the beginning of february with actual time and space all around me. i've been able to think. i've been taking long walks, i am reading good books, and creating art.  life deserves so much more than busy rushed days that can barely handle all of our to-do's. for february i am focusing upon relaxing as much as i can.  i want to commune with God in his creation.  i want to sit with friends and engage in authentic conversations.  i want to laugh and smile.  i want to help where i can, and be in the moment always.  

17 January 2011

GREEN!

the reason for today's post is rather lame and shallow, however, it must be commented upon.  It was not until last year that I really began to care about the Golden Globes and the Academy Awards.  Mainly this is because I actually had some love for the movies and actors nominated.  This year was similar.  I am absolutely thrilled with the wins for Christian Bale and Colin Firth.

And as for fashion, I absolutely have no love for this actress, and harbor a great disdain for the media's fascination with her but I still must admit, I love that she rocks green!

15 January 2011

hello january,

"Joy is a holy fire that keeps our purposes warm and our intelligence aglow." ~Hellen Keller

2011,
i'm enjoying your newness. a blank white page lies before me. as the year's past are quite familiar with my lists of goals and dreams that i spend the last days of december creating. but with this last changing of the calendar, i decided to let you slip in. no lists. no decisions. i am staring at an unpainted canvas, and for once, i like it.
your weeks fall into place, your days weave themselves together,creating what i believe will be a beautiful tapestry of events and feelings.

23 November 2010

tuesday music fun!

Since I've started teaching, I've really felt my age.  I am ten years older than my students and frankly I feel like fifty or more years could separate us.  Technology has transformed our culture to an extreme extent over the past ten years making things so different for today's teenagers.

But what makes me feel I've aged more than anything...
is these two bands reuniting! :)

Seriously, I remember the days of listening to "Quit Playing Games with my Heart" in my walkman, to staying up late to see New Kids sing "Funky Funky Christmas"on Arsenio Hall!
It feels like so long ago...

and even longer...

and you know I am going to get back to my thirteen year old roots to see these 'men' live next year! :)

30 October 2010

life lesson.



I grew up with Mr. Feeny.  This is by far my most favorite episode of Boy Meets World.  It makes me laugh and cry.  I dream to embody many of the things Mr. Feeny embodied.  He was a wise and loving teacher.

cultivating compassion//practicing colossians 3:12 (part I)

"Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion , kindness, humility, gentleness and pati...