i know what's like...

to be passed over, to go unnoticed,

to be clumsy get things wrong

and i know what it's like

to arrive too late

to be told to leave

to be walked upon

 

if only for today

i wanna be the girl who got away

the lover who really loved

the dancer who really danced

to the last song

 

 

i have no control.  i am surrendering to that today.  i don't know how to piece it all together, to make it happen.  because i can't.  it's all so discouraging. 

 

i need grace, love, peace and patience. 

 

i know what it's like to not have those things. 

i know what it's like to not be seen. 

i want to do great things in spite of all this. 

 

i want to love and experience great things, to feel awe in spite of everything telling me i cannot.

 

for just today, can i be the girl who got away from all of this and just feel the freedom of faith and hope?