the fun of all the others.

it always seems greener, doesn't it?

i try not to think that way.  but i can't help but constantly wonder about the lives of others?  what are they doing right now?  and somehow, it always seems better than...

but who knows?  who really knows?  i often, as of late, seem to write about the strangeness of my placement in life.  you know this whole, 29 & single thing?  i hate to chalk it up to something simple like that, because it is really so much more richly layered.  my life is complex.  i am on the brink it feels...of something.  and i try not to get weighed down by all the "what if i had done..." kind of regrets.  because i do not believe in regrets.  no regrets.

i am here, alive, today, for a reason.  a complex one.  a multi-layered, deep purposed, altering, impacting reason.  i am here.  and it goes beyond what i can know and comprehend in this moment, i know it does.  it has to.

this is what i believe.  it isn't always greener.  it just isn't.
i believe in big belly laughs and giant full tears.  both are necessary.  always.
i believe that reading, long nature walks, and soothing hot baths are absolutely essential.
i think a man should be cultured in some way.  i believe in men who can quote shakespeare and dress beyond jeans and a t-shirt.
i believe in the calm that is a result of hot tea & honey, a good dusting and vacuuming, from music that evokes beyond basic emotions.
i believe that nothing is greater than purposeful solitude, the silence that comes from someone who really listens, and the love of home, wherever or whatever home is.

i believe that greener is here before me.  i don't need to keep looking elsewhere.