my existence lies here in southern california, but my heart remains in nyc. a brief season away from my normal life and it feels like the whole world should have changed. but it hasn't, only my heart has changed. i am in love with nyc...and i know i will miss it terribly when i am gone. i feel alive here. i know it cannot last forever. i was and am in endless awe of the city that never sleeps. i feel as though i walk around everywhere with my mouth gaping open, gasping at every beautiful sight my blessed eyes are able to behold. how i long for a life of luxury in manhattan, perhaps selfishly so, but i can't help but think of what an amazing opportunity it would be and the endless amounts of possibilities that exist in staying here. usually, i am always happy to return back to the home i know, but this is perhaps the first time i feel more sad to leave. it is as if life elsewhere has lost its color so suddenly. i never thought i could love any place more than southern california, but here i am with a change of heart.
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